this is what you will do now.

you will make more lists because they make you feel like you're in control of things. and crossing stuff out makes you feel anchored.

you will allow yourself to talk about your successes. it's okay to be proud of yourself once in a while.

you will stop letting other people's illusions infect your reality.

you will remember and listen and remember again.

you will keep trying because you must. you owe it to yourself to keep at it, and sometimes it's okay to just go to bed instead.

you will refuse to stress out about things you cannot change. like servants, and the weather, and toddlers who don't want to take baths.

you will phone or visit more often.

you will leap before you look and it will be okay.